tujhe sab hai pata na Maa..(hindi)

Maa,

Aaj bhi yaad hai mujhe..

“aati hun tere..

 sapno ko poora kar akele”

..maine hi vaada kiya tha tujhe.

Par..

Zindagi  k is safar mein

Thak chuki hun akele chalte huye.

Raahon mein rok rahe ..

..muskilon se ladte huye.

Mere ye labb  to..

.. asli muskaan  bhi bhool gaye

Roothon ko manate ..

Or sabon  ko hansate huye.

Dil ne dard ko ehsas karna bhi ..

... ab  band  kar diya

Sare  ghamon ko chupate huye.

Kamzor pad gai hun abb

Khud ko majboot karte karte,

Teri godd mein rakh sar..

Sona chahti hun kuchh pal.

Na jaane kitne arson se ..

rok rakha hai khud ko,

Tere aanchal mein chhupkar.

Ro lena chahti hun jee bhar.

Thahar se gaye hain..

..ye kadam mere,

Mujhko baahon  mein bhar apne..

Phir se badhne ka hausala de de.

Kehne ko to bohot hai abhi

Par tujhse kuchh keh nhi sakti.

Ye sab sun ghabraa jayegi..

Kabhi apne dil ka haal nhi kaha
maloom hai mujhe,

...mujh se kahin jada tu toot jayegi.

~ Swati Kumari "swatz"

..something is missing..!! (hindi)

Dard ye kaisa uthta hai hai,

Seene mein mere.

Kai teh tak chali jati hai

Ye tees..ye chubhan.

Gunah kya maine kiya

Kasoor hai kya mera?

Milti hai har pal..

Kis khata ki saja.

Meri is khoobsoorat

...rangeen duniya mein

Kisi ek khas rang ki kami to jaroor hai.

Apne har khwaabo ko

..haqikat mein tabdeel kiya,

Par kahin na kahin..

Shayad koi khwaab abhi bhi

..adhoora sa hai.

Dil ka koi armaan

Na jaane kaha kho gaya,

Auron k dil k dard ko mehsoos karte karte

Apne hi dil ka ehsas

Na jane kaha kho gaya.

Har ek sawal ka

Jawaab hoon main,

Fir ye ek or sawal

Kaise chhoot gaya.

Meri khud ki banayi duniya mein

Ek adhoorapan..

Ek soonapan..

..na jane kaise reh gaya..!!

~ Swati Kumari "swatz"

..ehsaas.. (hindi)

Na jane ye kaisa ehsaas hai...

Hum door hain,

fir bhi ye dil itne paas hai ..!

ye koi bediyan nhi...

fir bhi ,

tumse bandhe-jude hone ka ehsas hai..!

ab fark nhi padta logon ki baton ka..

kyunki ..kisi k liye main,

or koi mere liye khaas hai..!

tum kehte ho mera sath..

 tumhare liye khubsoorat ehsah hai,

par tumhara..

ek ek alfaz..

mere liye pyar hai.......!!!!

~ Swati Kumari "swatz"

Jeet ya Haar

Jashn mana rahe ho kya

Soch kar apni jeet tum.

Jeet kaisa,

Is ek-tarfe khel mein. ?

Na jane kis khayal se

Tumne ye khel suru kiya

Bina bataye ,

pahli chal bhi chal diya.

Vaar tum karte gaye

Or galat mujhe kaha.

Daga tumne diya

Or kasoor hamara kaha.

Jab hamne chali pahli chal

Fir tumhe itna bura kyun laga.

Tumhare vaar to khali gaye

Par meri ek koshish se

Tum itna kyun tadpe??

Mere paas to aisa kuchh  nhi

Jo tum fir chhin lene  ki koshish karo

Par apni galatiyon se

Tumhare paas hai

Bohot kuchh khone ko.

Muje pasand nhi  aisa khel khelna.

Par yaad rakhna,

 bina wajah ,bina khele

haarna bhi kabhi pasand mujhe nhi..!

~ Swati Kumari "swatz"

only for you (hindi)

Apne hi sawalon mein ulajhti gai

..to doosron k sawalon ka jawab kya dun??

Tujh sang bitaye palon mein khoi rahi

..to or kisi ko koi hisaab kya dun??

Jo kabhi samajh na sake mujhe

..unhe apne haal-e-dil ka saboot kya dun??

Dil pe kai jakhm diye doosron ne

Jakhmon se ladna  tumne sikhaya..

..fir  “mera koi khaas” kisi or ko kaise keh dun??

Log kehte hain,kitne na jaane..

 raaz chhupaye baithi  hun dil mein

..tere siwaa kisi or ko janne ka ye haq kaise dun??

Har aansoo,har muskaan ,har pal

 sang tum rahe..

..fir kaise  na har ek dhadkan –

  har ek saans  tere naam hone dun??

~ Swati Kumari "swatz"

Bechain Khamoshi.. (hindi)

IIs                   Is ajeeb si ..

..khamsoshi  ka matlab kya hai?

Tumhare badle huye ..

..andaaz ka raaz kya hai?

Nazarein bhi nhi mila rahe

Or ..“kuchh bhi nhi badla” ..

..ye jatane ki wajah kya hai

Iski hame bhi khabar hai..

..Ye tumhe bhi pata hai.!

Tumhare har ek sawal ka..

..jawab hai mere paas.

Poochho to sahi..

..aaj batati hoon har baat.

Par ..mujhe bhi ..

..apne sawalon ka jawaab chahiye.

Is bechain khamoshi ka ..

..hisaab chahiye.

Fir chahe to tum..

..mujhse koi vaasta na rakhna

Par Vaada karo..

Sang bitaye lamhon ki yaadein bhi..

              ..mujhse door lete  jaana.

~ Swati Kumari "swatz"

Tum jo ho paas nhi

Nazron  se door hona
..ye koi judai nhii

Palkon mein sanjoya hai hame
..ye koi khudaii nhi

Mere sapno ko diya rang tumne
..or koi kar sakta ye nhi

Har kadam pe sath tumne diya
..ho  sakta tha or koi nhi

Band palkon mein bhi nazar aatey ho tum
..ye baat koi itefaq nhi

Har dhadkan or sanson mein basey ho tum
..ye jadoo  kar sakta koi or nhi

Tum ho meri zindagi
..iska shukriya karne ko
hai mere paas koi alfaaz nhi.....!!

~ Swati Kumari "swatz"

you and me (english)

I agree, I have two face,

This is factual and  true.

For sometime I was changed

Just to give comfort to you.

Its’ also my part..

But not the real “me”

I transformed myself,

..to understand you..

It hurts really, when ,

You keep expecting more.

Forget about understanding

You never tried me to know.

I agree... I am too bad

On that I had hurt you.

But,

Blame me only..

If you have the guts too..

Guts to accept that..

Even you have hurt others

May be more than ..

others  had hurt you.!

Its not always intentionally..

But,

Ya, we do...

We all are human,

With the desires and dreams,

The expectations and feelings,

Likes and dislikings..

..all are different in you and me..!

I may have hurt you

But never wished your harm

..that I am sure.

Our path crossed

Each others..somewhere

And it may again..anywhere.!

But believe me..

Your path is different than me.

I never believed you as wrong...

But tried to understand,

How different are we.!

Go on your way..

Fulfil your dream,

I don’t want ever..

To come in between.!

I want to reach my heights..

All alone I want to fly,

Without anyone...

Wish to touch the,

Horizon of my sky.

I don’t expect from other ...

And wish the same with me.!!

~ Swati Kumari "swatz"

remembering you in a rainy night..!! (hindi)

Aaj mausam bada suhana tha,

ye dil mera shayrana tha...

Aaj is baarish mein..

bheeg jane ka mann tha,

Par afsos , humsafar na sang tha.

Mann mein kasak..

 dil mein ek tees hui,

Akele baarish ki girti boondo ko dekhti rahi..

Tabhi......

 ek hawa k jhonke k sath baarish mujhe bheego gai.

Un thandhi hawaon sang ...

barish ki boondon ne,

dil ko chukar kaha....

“door se aya paigaam hai,

 tumhare kisi khaas ka...”

Or tumhare paas hone ka ehshas kara gaya.

Sath bitaye lamhein fir yaad aa gaye...

Door ho kar bhi hum paas aa gaye,

Labon ki hansi pe tum chaa gaye..!!

~ Swati Kumari "swatz"